Carpet kotor, Lampu berhabuk

I'm too lazy to study for psycholing's mid-term this Wednesday. It's nothing new though. I've said this before that I'm well known for being a sloth. And I seriously don't know how I'm going to get through this semester. My brain's getting slower and slower...haha. But I'm going to work on improving it and get it back on track; make it function as usual. I realy need to. *lets out a big big sigh* heh..

Anyway, early this morning, Kak Long came over with her soon to be husband. I finally get to see him. Yey!! So they came over to settle their reception deals. We went to Presint 15 to survey the venue for the reception. When I entered the hall, this feeling of "excitedness" came rushing down my veins. I don't know if it's either I'm so happy for her or if I'm the one who cannot wait until I get married. HAHAHA!. But since the place is new so everything pretty much fits in its place. I was asked this quetion, "Hanis, bile Hanis pulak nak book dewan ni?"...I was a little surprised by it, ended up answering "Yang pastinye...sebelum carpet die kotor, lampu die berhabuk." Hehehe. The time will come kan? Insya-Allah. Hee~ =D

When you're trapped in a mess, you cannot deny the fact that even if there is a way out and knowing that it will be over, things will never be the same again.

Wooowwweee~

Haha. People can be very mean. And choose to express your anger through virtual means instead of dealing with it face to face? is just CHEAP. I don't have time to be emotional with all this crap. I've got a life to go on with and many more exciting things to face. Ramadhan is suppose to be a purifying month. Let's not violate that. Wee~ =D

p.s- Bile lah latok loddy nk blanje berbuke neh. cet. hakhak.

Yeeehhhaaa~

I've not been in the mood to update this blog ever since the semester started. And since it's getting a little quiet in here, I'll start the ball rolling again and hope that I'll be able to sustain that. Anyway, time flies like crazy looking on how we're already half way through Ramadhan. I can't wait until the Eid break; free myself from all the pressure life brings. But of course after that comes the bundle of stress on mid-terms, submissions, presentations...and the list goes on...

I find it quite disturbing when people act so nice in front of you yet say totally the opposite things behind your back and judge you as they wish. I'm aware that it's impossible to make every living soul on this earth satisfied with you but there's no harm in trying. But what hurts more is when the people you care most about turns their backs on you and make you suffocate with the decisions they make. It feels as if non of whatever things that you have shared is worth it. It is even more heartbreaking when the people you trust and cherish betrays you and say the worst things they can say about you. There's two sides to a coin, that's how humans are too. But I never knew people can be so very mean. Even with the people they are close with...(or is it only me who THOUGHT that we were CLOSE...)

Nevermind...probably I've made mistakes that I did not realize which led to all this mess. I'm a human being and I make mistakes. Although I do not have the slightest idea of what caused the problem right now, but if it is my mistake, then I'm not scared to apologize. I don't want to be stupid and childish; accusing people this and that when I'm not even close to perfect. Who am I to judge when I have so many flaws? I bet when people read this, they're going to think "alah..ko buat2 baik lak kat sini" but I won't take that to heart so long as I know that I am always ready to apologize for my mistakes, make efforts to solve problems and constantly trying to change for the better. I feel lucky that I have great people around who understands me and gives me support when I need it.

*Darling, life is not worth it when all you think about is saying bad things about people and constantly making enemies. You don't know what people actually say and think about you. Truthfully, people keep on complaining on how ego, self-centered you are, even those who you THINK cherishes you. But I guess you're too busy judging other people that you just don't realize it. Let's take the back seat once in a while to judge our own self, contemplate and ponder on our actions and words, ok?. And really, it's not always necessary for us to think badly about people and tell the whole world about it. But heh~ honestly, when talking about "criticizing people"...you're the walking figure of its definition. Oops...I'm just trying to be honest. =D

Childish games like this is seriously interesting. Heh.