You know you love me. XOXO (ehehehee~~)

Aaahhh~~ I've been busy lately catching up on things at the last minute. That's me. As always. Confident that things are under control but later on suffer from not caring. Bleh~wuteva. Anyway, holiday's almost over which means that I'll be going back to UIA this Sunday. Ooohh~can't wait. Yea~ right. I still want to wake up at 11 am. Shut up. You're a big fat liar if you don't agree with me! But honestly, I'm kind of looking forward to the 4th semester. I plan to add another subject on Tuesdays and Thursdays afternoon and just work my *** off for umm... Dean's List I hope? Ehehehe...Insya-Allah. Time flies. It's been... like what? 6 weeks? Heh~ That's pretty long but the memory of me driving in the rain to my home sweet home on the last day of school is still fresh in my mind. Owh well, what other choices are there left for me? Ah! I know! S-T-U-D-Y... yeah~ that's about it. I'm well known for being a sloth. I have this chronic laziness disease that I have yet to find the remedy. Even so, I still find myself staying up for the finals. So... remedy? Not needed. Teehee~

I've been in Jakarta the whole time I was away. I have the slightest memory of it when I toured the Java Island like 8 years ago so everything was pretty much new to me compared to the concrete images of Medan. But one thing that's still clear in my mind, the traffic jam was horrible and as expected, it still is. But the city itself is a lot like KL. As soon as I arrived and got in the car, the driver asked my mom "Kemana kta buk?", "Ke hotel aja dulu pak. Marriot", and what was the driver's reply?? "Owh iya. Marriot yang dibom itukan buk?" Wutdda?! Can you just say something like that which scares the hell out of me??!? Well, due to the bombing case, they implemented a super strong security system which was rather annoying. Having to scan my bag (even the Teh Sosro) every single time at the entrance was just -__-. And the memories of May comes flashing back in mind when I went to visit Bandung again. Overall, my 6 week holiday is fun although I spent most of the time drooling over TVXQ again and again and later on got addicted to Gossip Girl. I've got 3 seasons of OTH to complete and Hot Shots in line! Aaarrghhh~ how am I supposed to survive semester 4???!?! HELP!!!

(Iya... yang dibom itu lho pak! XD)

(a little early but Merry Christmas to those who're celebrating! All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth..yey!!... and umm..Jae too? *wink* *wink*)

daa~

=D

HOME!!

Mode : Away

The past few posts have been on the things that I've done during this semester break's holiday which is not what it's supposed to be initially but it somehow keeps this place updated since I don't always go into deep thoughts and give advices and lessons every single day. As if anyone is interested. Anyway, the land slides at Bukit Antarabangsa is heart breaking. My deepest sympathy and condolences goes to all those who are affected by it directly or indirectly. Those who have left, let us pray may they be placed among those who are blessed and the survivals, life must go on. It's definitely God's greatest test for some and I pray may Allah grant you with continuous strength, courage and health. Despite the sadness you're going through, I hope you'll be able to find the happiness you deserve as soon as possible.

On a brighter note, today (or rather yesterday, tardy again, sorry~) is a special day for us Muslims. I hope you guys had a great raya. Me, as always, never dared to watch the slaughtering of cows. Although I am there every single year, I force my eyes to draw onto something else. I know for what reasons those animals needs to be slaughtered but it's a little terrifying for me to watch. I suck. I know. I'm sorry. I need to change. Aja!

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!" =D

p.s -I'm going to be away for a few days which means those regulars on ym, I won't be around. If there's anything, text me okkeeh~ See you peeps!
*arrgghhh... I can't imagine catching up with 4 days of vids.

My own Noky Bros

I was on the phone with Huda a few minutes ago. She called and told me how her mother struggled to save her wedding necklace from an unidentified thief in front of her house. Go to her blog if you want to know more. But the reason why I'm mentioning it here is that, the part where the thief was shocked when he saw Huda holding a knife was just too funny. What was more hilarious is when the thief put his hands in his jacket, Huda ran like crazy! Hello~ he was shocked and scared seeing you with a knife, why'd you run?!?!?! Ahahhahahaha!! I know I'm not suppose to laugh but the image of Huda running away with a knife in her hand just because the thief put his hands in his jacket was just too hilarious. Ahahahah! You totally made my day Hud. So sad I won't get to see you T__T..naaahh~that's a lie. I'm just sad because I won't get to watch T Concert! huwaaaa!! huwaaaaa!!!

Anyway, I had a day out with my own Noky Bros yesterday. We went to Sunway Lagoon! Aaahhh~ it has been ages since I was there. I've always refused to go on "The Lost City of Gold" roller coaster every time I was there so at the age of 20, it would be a total embarrassment if I didn't try. So I did. It reminds me of JoongBo's roller coaster ride on their theme park date and Shinee's Yunhanam where the boys rode the seemed-like-scary roller coaster. *If only Key was with me *__* Even before we went to the Water park, we were soaking wet. Well, after the Collorado Splash, Niagara Falls Flume Ride and swirling around on the Grand Canyon River Rapids, what would you expect? It was fun!! XD

(I seriously wanted to puke after two rounds of Pirate's Revenge..errghh..)

*go die you pirate!

(Tomahawk ride! nice.)

(My own version of Noky Bros)
*thanx bangah! muah! =D

and since I mentioned about Huda earlier...

... here's us!! =D

Maths? ok laa~..ahaha

Dayyyyyyyyyyyuuummm!!! What's wrong with Youtube??!?! It's so sloowwww!! Argh~ it's driving me crazy! *sigh* T__T
Anyway, today I had to monitor my younger brother with his maths and science homework and assigned him some maths exercises since it seems like up until now his claim of "Is dapat banyak A ma.." remains in his fantasies. Interesting enough, I haven't solved any mathematical problems for years but I still managed to teach him! Waaaahhh~ Proud? Yeah~ a little bit. Ahahahah~ Maybe because I've only been dealing with alphabets and no numerical figures at all since I became a BENL student, it totally gave me a different feeling. It's like... refreshing... Ahahhaa~
I had a loooonnngg talk with Atip last night. Lot's of things came up but what's for sure is, now I have a big dream that I need to hold on to and really, the talk gave me clearer visions of goals that I need to achieve. Aja! Aja!!

(Hyun Joong as Hanazawa Rui with Korea's version of Makino acting out their scene...can't wait!!!)

*Atip, things were pretty harsh last night. Sincere apology from me if I've insulted you in any way. Luv you bebeh!Aja! Aja!

"I'm not scared of you..." ..me too, Jae. xD

Blogging in the middle of the night when you're eyes are about to shut yet your heart is struggling to pour your thoughts and feelings out causes major grammatical mistakes and definitely serious vocabulary problems. But then again, even if I blog when the sun is shining bright, these things happen too. Oh well, I'm not a native speaker anyway. I'm just trying to speak my mind the best I could in the most simplest manner. If these mistakes hurt your eyes and bother you in any way, I apologize. Do correct me! :D

I went to watch Twilight today with Inda together with Naim and I see the shining, shimmering faces of Hariz, Faisal and Stone too. *shining? shimmering? dream on!* Owh well, it's great to see them after a long time. Anyway, the movie was... should I say... simple? Yeah pretty much. Probably it was my mistake to not read about it in advance or at least the gist of it because I was waiting for some serious "it" and shocking scenes. I'm sorry but I fell asleep in the middle of it. It wasn't a bad movie or anything but there was just no impact. The climax was dull. It was just... THAT and nothing more. Aaahh~ reviewing movies is just not my thing because I really don't watch a lot of it. Just once in a while, when I have the mood. I prefer Quarantine. Well obviously the genres are different and maybe that's the main reason why I can't appreciate this movie. I mean, I prefer something more rational and not too unrealistic. Yeah~ But anyway, that Edward guy was hot although his face was all pale and scary. With those features... don't you think Jaejoong would fit the role? Except that he's not really scary looking rather a little pretty? Owh either way, I really don't mind him coming through the window while I talk to my mom on the phone. "I like to watch you sleep". Waaahhh~

(Go watch! You guys might not agree with me!)


(With Inda dearie~)

"Terpakse carik boyfriend vampire. Boleh die masuk tingkap sendri-sendri. Senang je. Besnyee" - Inda ... aaahhh~~ I totally agree. Jae through the window? Ooooh~ definately dream come true~

Kte lain, Awk lain....

Aaaahhh~ huuuugggeee relief. At least the image I had in mind of going back and forth Hare's office won't happen next semester. Alhamdulillah.

I had a chat with a friend of mine. She complains about having a hard time coping with studies and everytime we come across issues on studies and exams, she'd always say "Awak xpela. Awak pandai. Memang guarantee lulus. Kte lain la."

Frankly speaking, I was once the blackest sheep one can imagine. And yes, I am proud of it.
I was in great tense when I found out that I was failing G.A. I couldn't turn back time and start all over again what more ask Hare for re-sits even pleading won't do any good. This happened to HELL and Arab during matriculation too. I'd find myself in tears as I felt that there was nothing left for me to do in order to patch things up. I would always again and again turn to my mom. Telling her every single thing that's bothering me, reminding her in advance not to be surprised if I had to repeat anything and kept on saying "keluarkan hanis dari sini". But again and again, my mom would say the same thing, "Hanis cube ingat balik macam mane hanis berdoa bersunguh-sungguh untuk masuk universiti. Hanis tau peluang hanis dulu macam mana kan? tapi Allah makbulkan juga doa hanis, bagi hanis tempat yang paling baik. Ni semue dugaan. Hanis selalu complain, but in the end, hanis lepas juga. Betul tak? Mama dah kate, asalkan Hanis usaha, Insya-Allah, Allah tak sia-siakn usaha tu." These words are what made me go on.

During my school days, I can't even find the reason why I need to study. Books are always boring to read. TV and sleeping was much more important. But as the years go by, I come to see the changes in me. I became more disciplined and more determined. I guess it was because everyone around me was just too smart, those who got ridiculous marks and straight A's for their exams. The changes that occurred was not because I want to be them. But it's because I want to be better than them. And why did I work my *** off to get a scholarship? Because I don't want to put my parents through hardships. My dear friend, it's not about "awk xpe, awk pandai", not about "kte lain, awk lain" but it's about whether you want it or you don't. We were born the same right? How am I different to you? Well, you may be prettier but do I have 2 brains and you have 1? Did Allah granted me with four hands so that I can write notes more and gave you 2 hands that causes you to write less?

Allah has been kind. Too kind to me that He gave me a second chance, saved me before I drifted further. And up until today, I've taken the advantage of that chance as best as I could. I'm sure Allah has been kind to you too. He gave you the same chance as He gave me, didn't He? We are in the same place aren't we? So my dear friend, let's grow up, stop complaining, think critically, be rational, have empathy and always be thankful for everything that we have okay? Be sure that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I've put lots of thoughts on what my mom said. Yes, it is true. No matter how much I want to be in a better place, I cannot be anywhere else but here. I am not a strong and decent person. My heart is fragile and my grades and pointers are far from excellent, but at least I dare to stay and try.

"If I sleep, I can dream. But if I don't sleep, I can achieve my dreams." - Jung Ji Hoon