Carpet kotor, Lampu berhabuk

I'm too lazy to study for psycholing's mid-term this Wednesday. It's nothing new though. I've said this before that I'm well known for being a sloth. And I seriously don't know how I'm going to get through this semester. My brain's getting slower and slower...haha. But I'm going to work on improving it and get it back on track; make it function as usual. I realy need to. *lets out a big big sigh* heh..

Anyway, early this morning, Kak Long came over with her soon to be husband. I finally get to see him. Yey!! So they came over to settle their reception deals. We went to Presint 15 to survey the venue for the reception. When I entered the hall, this feeling of "excitedness" came rushing down my veins. I don't know if it's either I'm so happy for her or if I'm the one who cannot wait until I get married. HAHAHA!. But since the place is new so everything pretty much fits in its place. I was asked this quetion, "Hanis, bile Hanis pulak nak book dewan ni?"...I was a little surprised by it, ended up answering "Yang pastinye...sebelum carpet die kotor, lampu die berhabuk." Hehehe. The time will come kan? Insya-Allah. Hee~ =D

When you're trapped in a mess, you cannot deny the fact that even if there is a way out and knowing that it will be over, things will never be the same again.

Wooowwweee~

Haha. People can be very mean. And choose to express your anger through virtual means instead of dealing with it face to face? is just CHEAP. I don't have time to be emotional with all this crap. I've got a life to go on with and many more exciting things to face. Ramadhan is suppose to be a purifying month. Let's not violate that. Wee~ =D

p.s- Bile lah latok loddy nk blanje berbuke neh. cet. hakhak.

Yeeehhhaaa~

I've not been in the mood to update this blog ever since the semester started. And since it's getting a little quiet in here, I'll start the ball rolling again and hope that I'll be able to sustain that. Anyway, time flies like crazy looking on how we're already half way through Ramadhan. I can't wait until the Eid break; free myself from all the pressure life brings. But of course after that comes the bundle of stress on mid-terms, submissions, presentations...and the list goes on...

I find it quite disturbing when people act so nice in front of you yet say totally the opposite things behind your back and judge you as they wish. I'm aware that it's impossible to make every living soul on this earth satisfied with you but there's no harm in trying. But what hurts more is when the people you care most about turns their backs on you and make you suffocate with the decisions they make. It feels as if non of whatever things that you have shared is worth it. It is even more heartbreaking when the people you trust and cherish betrays you and say the worst things they can say about you. There's two sides to a coin, that's how humans are too. But I never knew people can be so very mean. Even with the people they are close with...(or is it only me who THOUGHT that we were CLOSE...)

Nevermind...probably I've made mistakes that I did not realize which led to all this mess. I'm a human being and I make mistakes. Although I do not have the slightest idea of what caused the problem right now, but if it is my mistake, then I'm not scared to apologize. I don't want to be stupid and childish; accusing people this and that when I'm not even close to perfect. Who am I to judge when I have so many flaws? I bet when people read this, they're going to think "alah..ko buat2 baik lak kat sini" but I won't take that to heart so long as I know that I am always ready to apologize for my mistakes, make efforts to solve problems and constantly trying to change for the better. I feel lucky that I have great people around who understands me and gives me support when I need it.

*Darling, life is not worth it when all you think about is saying bad things about people and constantly making enemies. You don't know what people actually say and think about you. Truthfully, people keep on complaining on how ego, self-centered you are, even those who you THINK cherishes you. But I guess you're too busy judging other people that you just don't realize it. Let's take the back seat once in a while to judge our own self, contemplate and ponder on our actions and words, ok?. And really, it's not always necessary for us to think badly about people and tell the whole world about it. But heh~ honestly, when talking about "criticizing people"...you're the walking figure of its definition. Oops...I'm just trying to be honest. =D

Childish games like this is seriously interesting. Heh.

Finally~

FINALLY! the 3 months break is -over- *BIG SIGH*. It seriously ended much sooner than I thought. Time flies so quickly that if I were to answer another round of Ethic's paper, I'd score A since the image of Fae and I struggling and stressing our brains out for that one particular paper is still clear in mind. I'm not sure if I have been that productive during this break since I remember going through everyday life with the same routine. I didn't meet up with my friends as frequent as I always do during semester breaks because all of us were all over the place. It's a little ashamed though since now we're even more apart until the next break. I don't remember spending quality times with my sister since she's so busy with her work, I rarely cross path with my brothers since they're busy with their studies and of course my parents are struggling hard with their respective jobs. So that leaves me with Kak Tuti and Joe. But even so, holidays has always been the best days no matter how boring it can get. Anyway, here I am again. Back to where I belong and where I should be for the next 2 years at least. I have never been so hesitant when a new semester begins but I seriously don't feel like going to school right now. Argh! I need to set my mind straight but it's just not happening! Whatever...I'm going to sign the attendance tomorrow anyway. -_-

When I met up with Atip, it did cross my mind that I've wasted time lazying around when I could actually wisely use it for the short semester. But it's during this 3 months break where a major change in me took place. I didn't expected it to happen this soon since I never really think about it. But I guess, when your heart's in a rush, you just can't seem to ignore it. Meeting someone who gives you the room to be yourself, accepts your views and ideas, be there to listen and share, makes you angry and mad but at the same time makes you laugh your heart out is just...amazing. It's hard to put into words how happy I am right now. For the first time I know that I've made the right decision. =D

During the break, I planned to go on a diet but instead, gained weight. I planned to finish OTH but ended up sleeping halfway through. I wanted to finish a few novels but didn't manage to start even one. I vowed to enjoy my single life but instead fell in love. =D...I enjoyed my long holiday but I've got other things to juggle now. I can't wait 'til the next break and see what other interesting events I may come across.

See you peeps in school!!!

P/S: dearie...good luck with your new job! =D

=D

Soal Hati

Kau hanya wajah biasa di mataku
Pasti lenyap sederas tibamu
Tak perlu aku memikirkan mu selalu

Kau tiba pada waktu tak terduga
Dalam mimpi dan di dalam jaga
Sehingga aku bukan diriku yang dulu

Soalnya hati, sukar di mengerti
Apa terjadi di luar kawalan diri
Entah mengapa sejak bersua
Aku dilanda resah
Kau mewarnai mimpiku
Ku dalam igauan rindu

Kau yang biasa kini istimewa
Engkau membuat hidupku berubah
Yang ku cari-cari selama ini
Telah ku temui…

Soalnya hati, sukar di mengerti
Apa terjadi di luar kawalan diri
Entah mengapa sejak bersua
Aku dilanda resah

Kau mewarnai mimpiku
Ku dalam igauan

Apa terjadi di luar kawalan diri
Entah mengapa sejak bersua
Aku dilanda resah

Kau mewarnai hidup ku
Ku dalam igauan

*I hope you know how important you are to me. I <3 You. =D

Happy~

Happiness comes when you least expect it. I'm happy. Very very happy.
*thanks to you~ =D

Hello~

I haven't been very productive these past few days so I'm sorry for the M.I.A mode. Hope to post up some beneficial stuff very soon. =D

*Reminiscing the memories of KRU. I'm currently obsessed listening to their old records. Yey! =D

~tak kusedar sekali lagi ku jatuh hati dengan kewanitaanmu...pada malam yang sempurna, terpegun daku terpesona...keanggunan lembut bicara, kita berdua bagai rela jatuh cinta tuk kali ke duaaaaa....~ cepat..sape boleh teka tajuk lagu ni?? =P huehehe...